I can't wait until I get back to school. Just to be back on my own away from my parents and seeing everyone again is going to be awesome.
I'm a little nervous about living in buell though. Last year everyone in wise was so tight and we all knew each other. I don't want to not know any of my neighbors or something crazy like that. I want to know EVERY ONE. haha. and I want everyone to be cool. word.

The only things I need for school are extra long twin sheets and a way to hide my dog. awww, I want him to come so bad!! :(

I really need to start packing, but with selling the house and everything, I don't want my room to be a mess with boxes so people are like "umm you live like a rat." But I'm so excited to go and start decorating our new room and meet everyone!!

So I sold all of my books online that I had from last semester. I got a lot of money back for them too. I'm just waiting for the final payments to go through and be deposited in my checking account. I still have one more check from the Depot and I am dog sitting this weekend, so I will have a good chunk of change to get me started at school.

I think I will lay out today and work on my tan. My dad is gone for a while and I can just chill outside with out him bugging me...
By the way... My mom knows about my belly button ring... and she's cool with it!! She actually likes it and wants to get one too.. but she's a pain wimp. haha. But we can't tell my dad, cuz he will flip.

Ok, I guess that's all.

xM<3Mx

It's almost my birthday!! (August 31!)

My dad just told me to move out.

So I was chillin in the Fiction section of the Enroy (N. Roy.. North Royalton) library lookin for a good read, and who comes up to me but an ex-classmate of mine from the big P. We haven't seen each other since graduation, so it was a nice surprise.
Now, this ex shall go by the name of "Jane." Jane was rather popular in high school, but unlike other popular bitches/skanks at the P, Jane was actually nice. She was nice to me, and if you weren't a bitch to her, she wasn't one to you either.
Jane wasn't exactly a "tiny" or "skinny" person, but because she was in dance she was rather muscular and had a pretty good figure. Unfortunately she went off to college, smoke and drank too much, and gained like 50 pounds.
Now, even though I like Jane and never had a problem with her, I took a slight joy in her getting fat. Why, you ask? Well, now all her popular friends from the P can see that fat can happen to them too. I wouldn't mind seeing a few other popular kids from the P. One, in particular, I assume (or hope) got beat up and had her teeth kicked in. Maybe she got fat, too. Possibly even pregnant. HAHA she would do that too.

Anyways, that was just a highlight of my day. I was fat(ter) when I was at the big P and the popular kids didn't like me b/c I wasn't perfect (and I was smarter than them.. stupid ditzes). Now I lost quite a bit of weight and I hope that all the drinking they did caught up to them so they can see what it is like.

Fuck you, big P
And fuck you, too
Skanks.

So, I got the job at the Home Dee-Pot. woot. The only bad part is they want me to work weekends... umm wtf.. i said no on the app. I think I'm losing this battle. The next orientation is supposed to be this weekend. Sorry, I quit. I have a prior engagement (i.e. I'm going camping with Blake). The guy wasn't very nice who interviewed me. His name is Bruce and I don't think I will like working there. Oh well, it pays a good amount of money and I need it.

Blake came down to see me this weekend. awww it was so nice. so now he's gone and I miss him and I'm sad, but I get to see him this weekend, so yay! And today is our 9 month anniversary. that is a long time (well, for me it is). Congratulations, Blake, this is the longest consecutive relationship I've been in. The longest non-consecutive relationship took place my freshman/sophomore year. I dated Jim for a year and a half on and off. I hardly got to see him. Neither of us drove, and we went to different highschools. Sigh.. nostalgia.

I like yoga. It's challenging and fun. I can't wait until physical therapy is over.

kthxbye

I got an interview at Home Depot tomorrow morning!! woot!

I had a doctor's appointment Monday. He said I am healing VERY well for only being out of surgery a month, and too keep it up and let the therapist challenge me.

I've also started walking on the treadmill 20 mins a day and I have some great swiss ball exercises that I have to do for therapy. The swiss ball exercises are building up my abs like whoa. So I do those (and all my other exercises) every day too. And I rented a dvd from the library called "yoga for common conditions" it is for old people so the moves are basic and just get your metabolism going. I love it! I haven't been able to do it every day, b/c we only have one dvd player, and usually my dad is zonked on in front of the TV.

I got to see Sunny, one of my long lost friends from high school! She was a year ahead of me, and I haven't seen her in a year. We had a blast!

The Home Depot guys are calling me about my application, so hopefully I will have a job starting next week! I hope! They pay their cashiers goooood money to start. So cross your fingers for me!

Finally, I will give you guys ONE guess at who is coming to see me this weekend. Here's a hint: He's from Michigan, but doesn't go to Eastern anymore... That's right! Blake is comming!!! Yaaaay!! I can't wait.

Ok that's all for awhile.

i went job hunting and thrifting today. no luck on the job, but i did find some sweet shirts thrifting! one says "outer banks pirates north carolina" and has a picture of a pirate. i was really excited. AND it was 1/2 off day, so it only cost me $1.08 for both shirts. :)

sigh.. street light manifesto was in town tonite (amazing ska band) but unfortunately dano couldn't go and neither could sunny, so i watched the animal planet.

sunny invited me over to her house to party tuesday night. i'm excited!! i haven't seen her in almost a year!! she said dana will be there too! woot woot! it's the vermont crew! <3 i can't wait.

im off the vicodin, so my sleep schedules are all messed up. and b/c i am still recovering, i can't do too much with out my body shutting down and me passing out. so, that doesn't help me have a normal sleep schedule either. it's rather irritating, b/c i'm up really late at night and sleep in forever in the morning.. ok, afternoon, and i can't get my stuff done. boo. oh well

blood and guts,
x <3 x

i have pent up angst and i don't know what its from
i'm viciously angry at the world
i just feel... almost.. tortured inside
its not the vicodin... i'm not on it anymore
i'm going fucking insane

It was a good weekend! :)

Whoa.. this is going to be long.

Friday as I was driving the long and tedious four hour trip from Cleveland, Ohio to Grand Blanc, Michigan I get a phone call some where around the mile marker 100 rest stop on the Ohio Turnpike. Guess who it was... Single L!! Yaaaay! I haven't talked to her in a long time and she was calling to tell me that she is going home to Flint (which is really close to GB) this weekend! It was exciting, but unfortunately I didn't get to see her and plans fell through in going to breakfast with a bunch of Easterners this morning. :( But it was nice to talk to her!!

So as I'm nearing exit 84 on US 23 (thanks to SL for telling me what exit I needed) I get caught in a dead-stop-bumper-to-bumper-parking-lot for the last four miles. It was hot, I didn't want to sit down anymore, and I wanted to see Blake!! After what seemed like an hour of sitting there, I finally get off the highway and make my way to Blake's house!! It was soooooo good to see him! Awwww! I missed him so much! We hugged, we kissed, he ran into me with his remote control car I got him for x-mas. How romantic. sigh.

That night we went to his friend Nick's frat party and goofed around and giggled. Blake was dehydrated, so I was a good girlfriend and took care of him. Saturday we layed around and just were with each other, enjoying one another's company. We layed out in the shade of his HUGE backyard by the pond and then took a little walk around the pond looking for fish and bull froggies. We saw fish, but no frogs.. we sure heard them though! It was a beautiful summer day and just perfect for napping outside. :)

Sunday we went to the mall, went to a graduation party, and went swimming over at his friend April's house. Another one of their friends, Mehgan (yes, that IS how she spells it), was there so I got the seal of approval from her too. It was a good time and then it stormed like whoa. Tornados were near by and stuff, and boats were ripped off trialers, trees were down and it was a mess. Fortunately, most of it bypassed us except for a storm. Mmmm... I love thunderstorms.

Finally, this morning after a very long and tearful goodbye with Blake, I attempt to take US 23 to Eastern. I say attempt b/c every entrance ramp I tried was blocked off. It took me a while and a few tries to get on to 23. Then I got stuck in traffic. I no longer like Michigan roadways. I get to Eastern and grab breakfast with Double L, Jessica, and Will! We went to Abe's and laughed and caught up and it was good. Today is Will and Jessica's 3 month anniversary. Awww. Then we got to talking about how Blake and I have been dating almost a year. A YEAR. Whoa. I miss hanging out with everyone all the time and going to Abe's at like 3am. Then I preceeded to drive 3 more hours home to Cleveland.

All in all, it was an AMAZING weekend. I'm so glad that things are working out with Blake and I, especially with the distance.

Oh, and I think I may not have to temp this summer, or get a "real job." My neighbors down the street has two little kids that I usually baby-sit for (they are the BEST kids.. and probably the only ones I like haha) and the mom is looking for a job, so instead of putting them in daycare (it's expensive!), she's going to have me watch them! So we will see what is going on with that. I may be able to work the days that I don't babysit. I'll probably do that b/c I need a minimum of 3 thousand dollars before semester starts. ick. Right now I have $0. Poop.

Ok, I have written enough.

<3

Yay! I might get to see Antoine and Jessica on my way home, too!!! woot woot!!

And here are some promised pictures, all taken at my house over Memorial Day weekend.

 

( Puppies!! )

Not only do I get to see Blake, but I get to see Double L on my way home!! Yaaaay!!

So my friend Mike told me I should grow and avocado tree. And, because I do EVERYTHING he tells me to, I am! :) So I have the pit in some water with tooth picks in it to hold it 1/2 in and 1/2 out of the water. It's sitting in my window b/c I get the majority of sunlight. I'm excited for my tree!

I had water therapy today. It was fun. I like the pool. Too bad I look horrid in bathing suits. :( oh well. I also have therapy on Friday. Guess what else I am doing Friday!! That's right! Going to Michigan to see Blake! And probably stopping along the way to say hi to people! yaayy!

I got my haircut today. Nothing dramatic, just a trim. Eventually it will get long, and I will keep it like that over winter, then chop it off again for summer. I also picked up some hair-dye today. I need to get my hair back to one color. It has like 5 in there now, and they are all grown out and icky. So tomorrow I will be back to medium brown. Maybe I should do darker? Whatever.

That was pretty much the extent of my day. But, I do go get to get some dog food later. Joy. I can't wait until I get a job. I can't stand being around the house.

Needing entertainment,
-Megan

Oh my God.. My mom is drunk. My mom's best friend since high school (who is my brother's mother-in-law) is also drunk. And they just drunk dialed one of their friends. who will be drunk.

wtf..?? My parents are alcoholics.. and they are acting like college kids. I'm hiding.

Anyone else avoiding a family bbq?

My good buddy of buddies sent me these. I can't believe they fit how I feel so well. Although, he didn't tell me who wrote them.
He also said go to deviantart.com for more.


*More Than Anything*

You said you care about me,
and I know it's true,
because when I look into your eyes,
the love shines through.

I've only to hear your voice to know
that your feelings run deep,
and I'm sure our love is a treasure
your heart will always keep.

I can see clearly
what you're feeling inside.
And I'll always be here for you
with arms open wide.

Even though you're far away,
you're all that I can see.
And, more than anything, I wish
that you were here with me.

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*Longing*

I long for your kisses,
to feel your heart
beat against mine.
I long for your love,
so sweet and divine.
I want you to hold me,
and whisper in my ear.
I yearn to touch you
and feel you near.
I miss you more than
I could ever say,
and I think of you
a million times each day.
And I want you to know
that I carry your love with me
wherever I go.

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sigh.. I just miss him more.

My dog puked on me today.. again.
My brother's dog and Joey don't get along. Monty wants to play, Joey wants her to leave him alone. She thinks his tail is a toy. But Joey is all bark and no bite. He growls, she advances, he backs up.

Monty is so cute! I'll have pictures of her up later.

I'm not feeling so well.. I thought I had food poisioning last nite, but no one else got sick. Then I thought maybe it was the birthcontrol pills, b/c they made me sick before when I took them. Whatever the case, I feel like poop on a stick. I can't even eat anything with out wanting to throw up.

:( Seeing Mike and Jen makes me miss Blake more.. if that's possible. He's going camping up north tonite, and wants me to come. Too bad I can't. I want to go, too.

I'm going to go lay down while everything is quiet.

I don't get to go see flogging molly tonite. :(
b/c my bro is comming in later than expected.
poooop..! I really wanted to hang out with mike and jimmy, too.

ok, I KNOW I should be cleaning my room and the bathroom, but I am playing TETRIS!!! HAHA

Got a lot to do today, and I don't wanna do it.